Why am I so broken
Why am I so broken
i don’t believe I have mentioned it aside but
I am on medical leave from work, on an official/legal basis
due to treatment for bipolar - mood disorder
and I apologize. for my strange markings on the walls and
for the unsettling silence
I will be back… I am getting the help I need and
then I will be able to take this all off my chest again
shotgun-mouthwash asked: Hi uhm. You don't know me. But, I knew your work years and years ago on DA. you inspired me to draw things and help me practice because I saw such beauty in your work. I just wanted to thank you for having such a unique and developed style. And. Thank you for still being in this world doing things that are beautiful. You've come such a long way since then and i still admire you.
these kinds of messages… I am so incredibly grateful, so honored to be of inspiration to anyone, anything, in any kind of way; to have some kind of influence in this way, is both mystifying and amazing to me. and all I hope is to continue to do so… if I may… for others, and some day, for myself. I cannot thank all of you enough for your kindness, thoughtfulness. i have to stay, I want to, stay, in this world, even though it has been hard to exist as I am. but I promise you, that I will stay. if not for myself, just yet, then for you, all of you.
a small thing. feeling somewhat small and surrounded by lots and lots of clouds, but not in the comfort of mist, in the absence of warm air. That feeling of disconnect between what you sense and what you breathe.
I have been relocated, to a place between two mountains, and the change has been very lovely and very hard, and stressful. So sorry for the lack of images from my mind. They are there but, hidden. I’ve had too many things distracting. I really do need to get to the root of this, to deal with this body I have been granted against my will. It is hard to think about it. I don’t know how to advise myself of it.